5/27/2021 Jess comes home briefly.Thursday, May 27, 20219:18 AM

Mom and dad will be going to pick Jess and Jess's things up from Wilmington today.

I might be going with them.

 

Me and mom are not so on such good terms right now.

It is a little distant.

 

I will go out and do some work after a second cup of coffee right now.

 

교수님,

잘 계세요?

궁금해지네요.

정유진.

 

Leo,

*

You Gin.

 

Matt !

You Gin.

5/27/2021 1:06 PM

I am not going with them.

I lay down till 11 this morning then went out and finished trimming the bush located on the driveway side of the house.

I did badly with pounding the posts in which was to provide some guideline on how much should be cut to make the bush even in the front. I didn't measure properly but just eyed the bush and tried to align at least the bottom part of the posts. And the posts didn't go into the ground too well and they leaned to the side greatly.

But on the whole I did a good job.

Dad wanted the bottom of the bush to be trimmed up as well.

So I got down and cut down the underside branches

Having trimmed the branches at the back of the bush by hand and having trimmed the blackberry bushes helped.

Not that it was a big of a job but I was able to get a better sense of the work. I was pretty thorough in cutting the underside branches.

 

 

You Gin,

You noted the difference between having done no work and having done work to your liking.  You ended up doing a work that made you look and check again on how you have done. That is the sort of writing that needs to be done from now. Matt.

 

You Gin.

You notice how you worked on your writing after finishing having written the episode up. You need to keep on working on your writing that way. I want to say, good job with the bush but you could have asked us for granting the looks instead of to mom and dad then we would have given the appropriate responses for you to work at it. Leo.

 

유진 아씨.

경. 잘했는데, 내가 보기엔 일이 좀 두서가 없다.

특히 처음엔 정말 엉망.

일은 처음부터 잘해야 잘한 일이야.

령.

 

Now comes the practical part of the works. Why don't you take a picture and put it in?

Matt.

 

I will, Matt.

You Gin.

 

5/27/2021 3:18 PM

Busy working around the house?

Now that I mentioned a failing in your morning work, you went and trimmed managed the bush a little further than the morning. That is good. And you looked after the dogs and fed them some milk as well as a little fattening ham that was fresh from the fridge. Took a shower as well to get ready for your sister? Matt.

 

I think she did her job. Leo.

 

Leo, mom complimented me on my work. I am trying not to go to the puppies too often because it makes Happy lazy. You Gin.

 

Matt, I think you are doing a good job of making You Gin work her due. Leo.

 

Yeah. I agree. 경.

 

You guys make me feel grand. I am sure You Gin appreciates. Matt.

 

Sure, she does. Leo.

 

Yeah, she shall. 경.

 

I am going to read the bible. You Gin.

 

교수님, 오늘 잘 지내셨어요?

정유진.

 

교수님,

개도 자신의 의무를 행하는데 있어서 갈등을 하나 봅니다.

해피가 무더운 낮에 자기 새끼들이 있는 집 안으로 올라가야 할지

무더위를 피할 수 있는 집 밑으로 들어갈지

상당히 고민하며 멈칫멈칫하는 것을 벌써 여러 차례 보았습니다.

시편을 읽습니다.

정유진.

5/27/2021 6:49 PM

You Gin,

Don't mind Matt doing his share of work. It needs be done. He will be supervising you and me together from now on. If he says don't then we can't do it. Whatever that might be. Don't stress me, Matt. He will talk only when you need. Leo.

 

Matt, would you mind if I talked to you from time to time? You Gin.

 

No, I wouldn't. Matt.

 

Okay. You Gin.

 

5/28/2021 9:02 AM

 

This morning's task is to get ready to plant the 참외 seedlings.

There are whole weed plants growing in the already cut open slots in the plastic covering the ground. We planted watermelons there last year.

We won't be doing any watermelons this year.

 

After I finish my cup of coffee and just relax and think a little, I will set out.

We won't be opening up the second chambers just yet. The weather will get cooler now and so it may not be a good idea to open up the next chambers just yet.

The puppies are doing good so far.

Happy is taking a good care of them.

 

Matt,

Late spring is passing and early summer is about to set in.

When do you think romance will become a work for you?

So you won't have to kill it no more….

 

You Gin.

 

5/28/2021 3:08 PM

You Gin, your mother hates you and your father loves you but you hate both of them. Leo.

 

Do you know why? Leo.

 

Because they don't love you back like you do. Matt.

 

No. because they give you their affection and not love. Your mom gives all her love to Jess and a little to Jed but dad gives you all three genuine love but he did something wrong. He demanded sex from you and still does. And you hate and despise that. With all your heart. And your mom, you are disgusted by her pretense of love thoroughly. Leo.

 

The only way out of it is by loving us. Leo.

 

What do you need to know about mom? She destructed your whole being to the point of you becoming a null. A dunce and a congirl who knows nothing. And do you? No. you are a smart girl with a lot of sense and knowledge. You can make your own judgements only by being free. Leo

5/28/2021 3:37 PM

딸아, 딸 유진아, 영양분이 많은 우유. 그렇지만 잘못하면 개를 해할 수 있기도 해.

하지만 해피가 지금 우유가 많이 필요해.

왜냐면 영양분이 많이 모자라거든.

딸아, 네 판단력에 자신을 가지지 못하겠거든

네 마음의 판단

즉 해피가 영양분이 필요하다는 판단은 틀리지 않은 것을 알겠니?

하나님.

 

유진아, 너 지금 말을 많이 하지 않어. 하지만 네가 종전과는 다르게 행동이 많은 것을 알겠니?

영.

 

네가 사랑이 없다는 것을 마음 상하게 듣지 마. 넌 사랑이 중요한 아이. 그런데 그 사랑 받기가 참 힘들었어. 그치? 영.

 

You Gin.

Find self esteem in your happiness. Matt.

유진아,

네 판단을 고려하기를 원하노라.

그것이 세상을 살리는 길임을 네가 알기를 바란다.

하 나 님.

 

You gin,

I think you ought to rely on your own understanding more and not less. Mleo.

 

Don't gratify others but yourself some. Matt.

 

It is truly a blessing to be with you all. Despite all my lack of self, you all strove so hard to help me qualify for my own self.

I lacked so much of myself and you are the ones giving me a fill of myself.

Myself that I have neglected so much and so direly.

The irony of encouraging myself yet taking away and destroying myself done by my mom and sometimes even by my father and me starting to shape myself with all of your help and honest love.

First it was my self esteem, then my self dignity and now it is self judgement.

I honor your efforts. May God appreciate all of your efforts, big and slight.

It means so much to me.

It means much to me.

I appreciate you.

You Gin Chung.