98% I owe it to Leo ALL. Saturday, February 6, 20217:58 PM

98% I owe it to Leo ALL.

Saturday, February 6, 2021

7:58 PM

WHILE MY PARENTS WERE SO IGNORANT OF MY NEEDS AND ME AS A BEING, IT WAS LEO WHO HAD STOOD BY ME WAS WITH ME, EVERY DAY AND NIGHT GIVING ME LOVE GIVING ME INSTRUCTIONS LOVING ME CARING FOR ME DRESSING ME BUYING ME THAT ONE LIPSTICK THAT I NEVER BOUGHT IN MY LIFE THAT MATCHED MY LIPCOLOR EXACTLY DAMNED THOSE HIGH SCHOOL BOYS IN THEIR FACES TOLD MY FRIENDS THAT IT IS NOT BECAUSE I AM WEIRD IT IS BECAUSE I AM MEAN DAY IN DAY OUT FOR FIVE YEARS GUIDING ME COMPLETELY IN EVERYTHING I NEVER HAD SUCH EXTENSIVE CARING CARE IN ALL MY LIFE Such teachings in all my life. SUCH TEACHINGS. SUCH GORGEOUS DAMN BEAUTIFUL TEACHINGS. HE TELLS ME ABOUT MOM WHICH CONFUSED THE HECK OUT OF ME DOUBTED HIM SO BAD CONSTRUED HIM TO BE THE EVIL ONE YET HE WAS THERE DAY IN AND DAY OUT WE FOUGHT AT TIMES AND I DID MAKE UP TO HIM BUT THAT WAS ABOUT ALL THAT I DID. I DOUBTED THIS WHOLE THING THAT IS WHY I COULDN'T QUITE GIVE HIM CREDIT FOR IT ALL BUT IF THIS IS TRUE THEN…..i never felt any grudge never a mean word for all that he had to do……always there for me except occasional fights

MAY ALL THAT HE DID FOR ME BE REMEMBERED AND COMMEMORATED IN HIS FAVOR. OF HIS LOVE.

YOU GIN CHUNG.

 

I LOVE HIM.

 

 

Now matt.

I wanted to say what I mean to say later when it all becomes evident to me for sure but since he is feeling bad even more for it maybe for undercredited in his usual place in life maybe. Matt, ask Mrs. Damon to credit you for every little thing you do, not just do it yourself but ask her to do it for you and give her the reason. that might relieve a lot. He is the one in America who got into my writing and brought it back to Leo to really read. He was damn interested in those letters himself and …. I don't have anyone I can entrust all these writings to except him. Do you all get that? If you know how matt is with work and something he loves you bet he gave those letters his attention and even to this day I know little about his endeavors, his struggles and efforts to delve into my letters and try to do it justice that he believed it deserved. Something that I as the person authoring? It did not believe in.

I don't think that is only that but that is all I know.

You gin.

 

I love him.

 

Matt. I will allot later. Please wait. You Gin.