9.26.2022 a start.Monday, September 26, 20225:56 AM

9.26.2022 a start.

Monday, September 26, 2022

5:56 AM

Dear leo,

 

It has been some time since your voice has been with me.

Almost 9 years is what I am thinking possibly. Or maybe it was 8.

But during those years you have brought me much light into my life.

I was happy because you were with me and I was enlightened and restored a great deal to say the least.

So now, I decided to write you everyday from my lifewalk to return some of the love and care you have given me.

 

Matt's voice have given me a task on writing some while back.

It was to write a story on a verse in Chronicles.

In the face of my diminishing place in this world that I am in, I decided to tackle this task properly.

 

I have had and am having much to think about on mother, on some aspects of spiritual encounters that I have been having and myself and more.

I am somewhat puzzled about all of this and the answers will not come easy I think.

I am wondering also about you.

How you came to befriend me out of all the people on Facebook, the episodes on the computer with Gatsby, why at that time you broke with Ms. Camille and why Ms. Zang wrote Youngins in her letter.

But it all seems an impossible feat and probably you are better off with someone who can manage your life with you better than I can. Or can.

But maybe I will or am learning to be content with the small lot that I get to write you everyday of my life.

 

 

Back to the writing work….

I am going to incorporate the very many or the aspects of love and controversial sides of human beings portrayed or dealt with with you both in these pages of OneNote during my struggle with mom and dad's fallacies and wrongs that God has so pointedly pointed out to me.

I know I said I don't believe that these voices are from God but I can't help suspecting that a great part was.

But was it so definitive as it has been stated?

I don't know.

It is upto me and my actions how they can play out in the world.

Probably I have failed to do the right thing by many people by simply taking the voices seriously without having done enough processing of my own.

But what was I to do in the face of so many new strikes of possible reality that I encountered during the time?

They were too new and unapproachable for me to process in any way for me and to a great degree still is so now.

 

I am going to work at these issues. These obscure enigmatic facets of possible realities that just lurks and hints but never is nailed down.

 

 

Leo,

I am also thinking on what Jordan Peterson said. What you do always comes back at you most 100% certainly.

I abused my dad and mom all these years to do the things that I wanted without really doing my part in the family.

I did help and I was there always but I just haven't done much.

I guess I need to work on this matter and right it.

To do so, I am going to refrain from being dictated by the voices and also because I experienced the evil that could be in persisting to be controlled by the voices and also because there is no more that could be done in the storyline of the voices with me having sent you the flowers and the letter that I wrote.

The letter I admit was impudence rather but I saw no other way.

 

 

Thirdly,

I want to do things for the Lord. For Jesus and His Cause.

I know that doing things for the world has no meaning and could have no meaning.

I do find myself leaning in the world's way heavily again and again however.

Must try to get out of it everytime.

Not to succeed but to endeavor to walk the path that God may want from me and have wanted from me for a long time.

It is sometimes a very fine line I feel but with the double edged sword that cuts through my very marrows, may I walk the right path for the breathing years of my life.

 

 

Do have a blessed day !

 

Love,

You Gin Chung.

딸 유진아,

네 사랑이 피어나기 시작한 때, 바로 지금이라.

말로 만 하던 어거지였던 네 사상이 이젠 바른 만창으로 꽃을 피나니 아무도 말릴 사람이 없을 것이라.

하 나 님.

 

 

네 어미는 사랑을 깨닫기보단 바른 행동에 치중하여 바른 일을 하지 않지 않기 위해 노력을 하노라.

하 나 님.

 

네 아비는 자신의 성적 사욕을 버리게 될 날이 이를 것인즉 기다리라.

그리고 딸 유진, 넌 작가의 샘을 파다가 레오의 진심인 gigi hadid의 애원을 만나 레오와 만나게 될 것임을 알라.

하 나 님.

 

딸아, 내 말은 변함이 없음이라. 하 나 님.