사랑하라고 아가씨. 어. Thursday, February 25, 202110:30 AM

사랑하라고 아가씨. 어.

Thursday, February 25, 2021

10:30 AM

그런데 우리가 사랑해줄 생각은 하지 않고 너보고 사랑하라고 하면 안되지.

그래 우리가 너 사랑해줄께. 현.

 

고마워. 그 사랑이 조금 필요했어….

부탁해. 유진.

 

그것도 사랑을 요하니?

 영.

 

우리가 바르지 못해서 사랑을 못주는 거니?

영.

 

She loves me. Matt.

 

I don't think she loves me. Leo.

I think she hates it.

 

Maybe you are mistaken. Both of you. Matt

 

That is her love. Matt.

 

 

She used to love me so unconditionally. Now she just doesn't. Leo.

 

우리는 사랑을

우리가 널 위해 얼마나 많은 일들을 하고 있는지 아니?

영.

교수님, 느껴지지 않아요. 감사해요. 이메일 보냈어요.

유진.

 

우리가 네 사랑을 검진하느라 네 사랑을 다 식게 만들었니?

영.

 

어쩌면요….. .

정유진.

 

많이 차가워졌어요….옛날부터요.

유진.

 

이거 우리 한번 생각해보자. 영.

 

 

I think she loves but we can't receive her love unless we don't do her wrongt.

Matt.

 

I think you may be right. Leo.

 

나는 사랑을 아예 못느끼겠어. 안아줄 때 빼놓고. 영.

 

She is angry at you both because she expected too much. Matt.

 

That is why I don't give more love than is due. It does make one be so. Leo.

 

I guess your love will grow with time and I will grow colder with time?

You gin.

 

You are fitting things in again. Matt

 

Right. I don't know how my love can be recovered. You gin.

 

 

Is there a way?

Leo.

 

Why do you want it? Matt.

 

 

You know what I think. I think she should be with you more than me now. Leo.

 

Do you think if I love you all more than mom and dad then things will happen?

You gin.

 

No. but probably when you come you will love us more than mom and dad.

Matt.

 

So it is more of a sign of what will have happened by the time this happens.

You gin.

 

Yeah. Are you clear on it?

Amtt

 

A little more than before. I probably will be loving you more than my mom and dad perhaps by then.

You gin.

 

What about your love?

Matt.

 

I am not aware of it.

You gin

 

I think you give love to people who deserve it. Matt.

 

Maybe it is this. God loves us all but it depends on how much he is right with God whether the person actually feels loving love of God?

You gin.

 

유진이가 우리 사랑하고 있는거 맞어. 경.

 

I think you just don't like be duped. Leo.

 

I need proof to love just as much as you and young.

You gin.

 

그래 그건 맞는 얘기같다.

우리가 우리 사랑에서 무얼 보여준 게 있어 네가 믿고 사랑하겠니?

최.

이거 한심하네. 진짜 위해준게 아니라는 것처럼 들려. 유진, 영.

 

저도 제 눈으로 봐야겠어요. 아니면 그렇지 않으면 얘기를 하질 않죠. 유진.

 

일을 요구하는 것이 아니라 아직 그런 엄청난 일을 저지르셨다는 것이 믿기지 않는 것 같아요.

유진

 

실망하기 싫다.? 영

 

그렇게 안할 꺼에요. 유진.

우리가 이렇게 얘기하는데도?

영.

 

제게 오기까진 진짜 아니에요. 유진.

 

제 현실에서 진짜가 아닌데 어떻게 받아들여요? 만약 아무런 일 일어나지 않으면

제가 이런 말들과 생각들과 바뀐나 뿐에요.

이것이 아무것도 아닌 것은 정말 아니에요.

그래서 이렇게 하는 거잖아요.

더 이상은 못해요.

어떻게 주어지지 도 않은 것을 받은 것처럼 행동하라는 말씀이세요?

그건 미친 짓이라고까지 생각해요.

유진.

 

 

내 생각이 미스네. 그렇네.

정말 그래.

나도 좀 미친 짓을 많이 했나보다.

그래. 그거 맞는 얘기야.

매트. 나 미쳤니?

영.

 

No. not exactly. You know what you are doing but your thoughts are somewhat eclectic and excessive yes. You gin's thought excessive in another way but she gets this right. Matt.

You gin's thoughts real very real. That is why she wants this to be true not false or she will quit. Matt. 

 

That is what happens when you don't live life. Leo.

We live it all the time while doing this too. Okay.

You both do this only. Matt.

We live life with it.

 

그럼 학자들도 공부하는 것을 조금 더 현실적으로 할 필요가 있네?

유진이 하는 것처럼?

영.

 

That would save you all from a lot of shit. Yes. Matt.

 

우리처럼 안하면 생기는 문제점들을 발견해야겠어.

영.

 

Please do. Matt.

I am planning to get into the fire so I need to know.

I am giving all I got.

Matt.

 

 

I like a girl to be perfect but not suspicious all the time. Leo.

 

What are you getting at, Leo?

You gin.

 

I don't want you prying. Leo.

 

What do you expect me to do. Shut myself down?

You gin.

 

Be a doll. Leo.

 

Why?

You gin.

 

You don't know then you won't be hurt.

Leo.

 

Are you saying I need to know more about mom?

You gin.

 

Yes and no.

Leo.

 

I refuse to be a doll. I am a human being and I shall be a woman not a doll.

If you want a doll get  aplush and keep it.

You gin.

 

Why can't you do that for me.

Leo.

 

Because I am not God.

You gin.

 

I wish you could be like these models who stage my house.

Leo.

 

I won't blissfully know what I am not supposed to know so you probably won't have to worry.

That gets me rather suspicious.

You gin.

 

You gin. Make up. Matt.

But the former part probably true. Att.

 

I probably won't blissfully know things I am not supposed to know. God will see to it.

You gin.

 

Well, why can't you be stupid for once. Leo.

 

Why do I have to be stupid? You gin.

 

Because I want you to.

Leo

 

I don't want to.

You gin.

 

I won't be a stupid doll and not know I will just not know for you. That I can do.

You gin.

 

What is a difference.

Leo.

 

I mute my being's soul and kill it for doll but willfully done it is reasonable.

What do you think, matt? I am totally unclear about this one.

You gin

 

Too much emotion leave. Don't want fight. Matt.

 

Need a fight. You gin.

This damn boy is intent on making me a what anything that I am not. DO you want me to start calling you my Ken?

You gin.

 

 

You can do that. Not just willfully but intentionally not know.

Leo.

 

Sure.

You gin.

 

Fine that is what I want then.

I didn't think it was possible with women.

Leo.

 

So becoming a doll is easier?

You gin.

 

No. it doesn't make senes but it woul sure easy things on me. Leo.

 

If you ask me not to know then I won't know.

Fair?

You gin.

 

That is easier than becoming a doll.

Leo.

 

Yes.

You gin.

Way easier.

 

Boast. Matt.

 

 

Ugh…. Thanks matt. However.

You gin.

Young. Can you not know for a man?

Leo.

 

알 걸 알아야지 모르면 어떻게?

영.

 

Don't make my women not know. Don't you dare. You make yours a dummy I make mine smart.

Matt.

 

난 바보가 똑똑한 거 보단 낫다고 생각해. 백인 남자들에게 있어서는.

유진 레오.

 

Why.

Matt.

 

Because they interfere wrong. Leo.

 

Guess wha tGod thinks of you men. Maybe you meddle his affairs and never see right maybe.

You gin

 

Too much analogy. Not concerted nor concrete.

Lmatt.

 

But do explain. Leo.

 

You men probably mess things up just as much as we women do your world.

You gin.

 

Perfect analogy.

Matt.

 

Wish you do know somethings. Leo.

 

Like how to love me when I need it. Leo.

 

Love is not to provide but is an actual thing that works on you when you do the right things or when things are right? Love has a mind of its own. Just as women do.

You gin.

 

Baseless calculations and midget analogy and concrete lacks. Matt.

(R1: got the mood right, will damon)

 

Explain. Leo.

 

It is not your convenience but God's will that needs to be taken into account.

You gin.

 

I see. So I shouldn't expect things to flow perfect on my side but on God's side.

Leo.

 

If you need that perfectness to find on your own then we can play dumb for you. You gin.

 

But love. I said I need love.

Leo.

 

Maybe I can respect. Would you like that?

You can't expect logic to work when the premises are not there!

You gin.

 

Like the analogy.

Matt.

(R2: like it…sir To Matt)

 

I do so much, you gin.

Leo.

 

Then let me know that you worked hard.

Give me a snippet or an analogy or what you can provide then maybe I will be moved to at least cook a more studious? Meal for you.

You gin.

 

I need love because I am not doing my work. Leo.

 

What kind of love do you need?

You gin.

 

Because I need to love blacks to do work perfect.

Leo.

 

What can you tell me about it?

You gin.

 

 

 

I don't like you being with Matt all the time.

Leo.

 

You want me to come to you occasionally?

You gin.

 

Yeah but if you want I could go to you, if you will let me. Leo.

 

Maybe something is uncomfortable between us. Do we need time to resolve this or is it something we can tackle with and get over with right away.

 

If you don't give me. Then I will go to a woman who can. Leo.

 

As long as you are in your right mind, I will have no objections.

At least have it out with me until you have the right mindset so to lessen our future problems with each other. If it helps or works towards solvin gout problem the visit to another might be more welcomed.

You gin.

 

But if you have a need or want it might be that that woman needs you too.

You gin.

 

Maybe I need her bad.

Leo.

 

Yes, then that is right too I guess.

You gin

 

You gin. You can do better than that.

Leo.

 

It is not just the matter of my willingness, it could be not so right but maybe it is right. I am confused here. That is true too.

You gin.

 

I think when I need a woman I should go to her just as you need Matt.

Leo.

 

Then it is right.

I concede.

You gin.

Could it be wrong?

You gin.

 

Well, no I think it is right.

Leo.

 

Could it be wrong, Matt?

You gin.

 

N영. 아니 틀릴 수 있다고 생각해. 그 여자가 꼬실때는. 영.

 

Right when the woman is enticing you yes.

Matt.

 

Wait. I could have perfect reasons for wanting you, Matt or even Leo and that could be enticing you or Leo. That would make me a cheat for that time.

You gin.

 

Exact as usual .

Leo included. Perfect.

Matt.

 

I expect it of you. Leo.

 

Where is the familiarity then?

Lmatt

 

But what she says if is true.

Leo.

 

I will expect it of her.

If she disses then I will deal not just forgive.

Mleo.

 

 thank you, love. I will improve within the regulatory frames I will try.

You gin.

 

 

Yeah. They come real lazy. Thye do nothing but play. Really.

She works like  this because she has to . Not because she want s to.

But this is what she want s to do. What work does she need to do?

Outside worl.

 

I am going to make her work now. But really in good reason.

You go rake those small cones but make them thick not thin. Pile up high.

Don't do little bits okay?

Do you know why?

Leo.

 

No.

You need to rummage with more material.

Otherwise you get confused.

Leo.

 

So work at it.

Leo.

 

What about Happy and Lucky. What should I note in giving them food and water and cleaning after them?

You gin.

 

I have one more thing.

Use the black rake not th egreen one. You always get shabby things.

I don't like shabby. Get a clean one. You need to be able to do so.

Nan don't dump what you scraped leave them in a pile.

When your dad helps you then get them cleared to the side as your family normally does.

 

Happy and lucky needs petting cute not stupid.

Be cute to them then they won'r feel bad ao crave for your outh.

(rL: petting won't do for you, leo….)

Loe.

 

교수님. 제게 일에 대한 지시 사항 잇으세요?

 

아니 그냥 제대로 해.

 

Matt, is there anything that you would like me to keep in mind/

You gin.

 

I will do it with you.

Matt

 

Thank you but is it all right?

You gin.

 

Yes. It is.

Matt.

 

How.

 

Because it is.

You gin, matt.

 

All right. After lunch I will scrape cones. I will make large piles.

I will not scrape them aside but leave the piles alone.

I will feed water clean happy and lucky and pet them sparse and with air so they feel satisfied.

You gin.

 

Could I make smaller piles then put them together or do you want me to scrape far and wide?

You gin.

 

I think she should go in smaller piles. I think that works better. Matt.

 

Okay you are right.  I forgot about getting the black rake. You gin.

 

There. Get it now or you will forget.